Troubling time????

I am hitting a downer right now, probably due to the fucking weather. I hate Chicago SO MUCH. I would give anything to move the fuck out of here and go south. Anything, but be homeless and jobless.

It just surprises me have fast these girls now-a-days go from man to man. Melisa didn't work out, so said that she was looking to take things slow this time around, but now she already had a boyfriend LOL. Fucking women never know what they want. Fucking sucks that chicks can get a boyfriend anytime they fucking want. God damn bitches. I really can stand white girls. Most of them are whores.

Ok got that out of my system.........

On a somewhat positive note, Joyce invited me to go with her to her sister's wedding in a couple weeks. If I had to chose with everyone I date in the last 3 weeks, it would be Joyce. She has a good since of humor and we have the best conversations. Not to mention, she is beautiful! She coming to Woodfield mall today U have to watch the kids.....again.

I really wish I didn't have to be a parent. I really, really wish I didn't have kids with Mandi. I am feeling a little bit of hate right now for her. This comes and goes, but what do you expect, I caught her with another guy. Still wanna kill that mother fucker, but also not sure I should thank him too? My life is just SO fucked up right now. I have to deal with her the rest of my fucking life cause I have kids with her.

So, God? Are you gonna help me. I need girl I can trust and need more money.