Dear Paroxetine Hydrochloride,
You are the magic that keeps my thoughts of betrayal and revenge at bay. It's amazing that when I forget to take you, the evil that grips me comes back. Make me feel terrible.
You allow me to handle all the bullshit I have to take from a daily bases. Just when I think the storm is finally calming, it picks up again and sometimes stronger than before.
My Dad called and seemed eager to talk. He asked how I was doing. Typically how the conversation goes with him. He begins to ask about the kids and so on. He wants me to bring them by on Halloween.
I asked when they would be willing to watch the kids again, just for a couple of hours. In the past, they always complained that they don't get to see the kids. I tell them that I am of on Mondays, and they are welcome to come over anytime. But, truth be told, they don't miss them enough to drive the seven miles to my house, or leave their new dog for a couple of hour by herself.
Mandi and my parent have been at war for some time now. Mandi said very bad things to my Mom, and I can see why they don't want to be around her, hence me offering Monday visits when Mandi is at work.
BUT, Dad said "we won't watch the kids, Mandi put up that wall" , and "We need to act like grown ups."
What both parties don't understand is that it is tearing me up inside to have to play diplomat. For my own sake, I just stopped doing it.
I hung up on my Dad. I didn't slam the phone or yell. I just hung up. It is no use to explain to him. I tried that. He is always right. He always interrupts me when I try to really talk about my issues.
So, Paroxetine Hydrochloride, you help me deal with this and so much more. But, I think I need to up the dose. It is not easy being me.
I live with a wife that fucked another guy whom I caught.
My son is autistic.
My daughter has development delays.
My parent guilt me and stir up old shit.
and the list goes on.......
Some people would have killed themselves or somebody else.
But, Paroxetine Hydrochloride I can alway count on you to help me keep my mask on.
Thank you.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
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