Post 4: Opportunity Knocks, and getting more shit off my chest

Good friend of mine is moving to Florida for her new job. Her and her boyfriend split up on good terms (if there is such a thing). They were together for 8 years. Long time for a couple who is not even 30.

So, my friend is throwing one last big party as a far-well.

I am hoping lots of people (especially girls) are there.

For my entire life, I have not acted like a typical guy. Like I said before, I feel like I have no balls. My parents brainwashed me really good, and even ruined every chance I had for a date while in High school, so afraid I was going to have sex. They wouldn't even help me go to prom. If I wanted to go, I had to find my own ride, pay from my own tux and whatever else that came around, BUT be home at 10pm! All these years I thought they were good to me, when really, they fucked me up real good.

I never got to be a teenager. I went to school and then worked from 3:30pm to as late as 11:00pm for my Dad's asshole boss. That mother fucker even had me working through supper....that's right, I didn't even get any breaks till I finally asked to have 5:30pm to 6:30pm to get a dinner.

You see, in Chicago, everyone commutes. My job was near 20 miles away by the end of the day. (I worked as a assistant teacher in ISKC for 3 years form age 16 to 19. By far the worst job I had while in school. Three years of loyalty = $5.75 an hour!)

Where were my parents when I would be so tired I barely made the B honor roll at high school?

Where were they when I asked if I could quit the job?

Where where they when I wanted to go to colloge?

They were to busy taking care of their own ass that's where.

I have payed for everything I wanted since I was 10, the year my Dad lost his job. I wanted a $149 stereo for X-mas, I payed for half. I wanted a Nintendo, sold all my toys and mowed lawns to get it as well as any games I wanted. Now the typical Baby-boomer would say,

"That builds character."

OK, then explain that when it came time to go to college, my parent told me "College is not for everyone." That translates as, if you want to go to college then you have to do it one your own. They didn't even point me to a direction, NOTHING!

Poor white boy wants to go to college? Not happening in this country. Reverse racism was pretty bad in 1996. Problem with that is, I am white man. Which also translates in my country, the US of A, telling me if your white then you have the money to go to college, so no grants for you. And I am no Einstein, so no scholarships. A 3.0 GPA is dog shit if you have no money to go to college.

My parents wanted to get rid of me, but didn't want to foot the bill to do it. Eventually I found a way. US Marine Corps.

I figured if I made it back from there I would have a purpose (young naive thinking at the time) and the ability to go to college. After 4 years of shooting at shit, I made it home and had the ability to go to college....BUT, got married to...oops.

Funny thing was I didn't even want to get married, but my parents wanted grand kids and therefore when I talked about not getting married, well lets just say they were not there for me. what else is new? Little do they know I am severing my ties with them. I don't call them any more. They want to talk to me then they can call me.

As for college, I graduated with Honors despite being married and having to work and raise a child. So, fuck you Miss Jones and all you other Horace Mann teachers for calling me stupid.

So, Saturday night, I change all that. I am going to flirt and then hopefully have some fun when any girl that want to have fun with me. Mandi got to fuck someone in March, so not I am going do the same if the opportunity knocks.